Have you ever taken the time to reflect on yourself?
Basically, have you taken time to look into your "internal mirror" to see if the person there is who you want to be?
I think this occurred to me as it is already July and most companies are already closing their financial year. Which means.. It's time for those darn review sessions with your boss(s)... Uggghhh...
Lucky for me this year I've sort of escaped it as I've switched jobs.
Nevertheless, I often take time out to see if I've reached my own goals by this time of year, i.e. Resolutions for Year XXXX. But it's never a serious assessment as so much as just a fleeting thought only.
Anyway, after this evening's team meeting, I'm seriously doubting my capabilities as the PM said that my project has to "catch up" due to the delays. Frankly, I feel as though I'm carrying the entire project on my back as my two team members are far too junior to undertake some of the tasks I would like them to do. *sigh*
I try to put this behind me and soldier on but as I do so, I feel that I'm redoing a lot of work when I hand it out. Which is not what I want... Because of that, I'm seriously doubting my technical and leadership abilities.
Ok, rant over. The picture in the mirror is not so pretty but if I draw the mirror with nice doodles and etc, it makes me a bit happier. However, that's not the end result I'm looking for. I still need to find a solution....
Basically, have you taken time to look into your "internal mirror" to see if the person there is who you want to be?
I think this occurred to me as it is already July and most companies are already closing their financial year. Which means.. It's time for those darn review sessions with your boss(s)... Uggghhh...
Lucky for me this year I've sort of escaped it as I've switched jobs.
Nevertheless, I often take time out to see if I've reached my own goals by this time of year, i.e. Resolutions for Year XXXX. But it's never a serious assessment as so much as just a fleeting thought only.
Anyway, after this evening's team meeting, I'm seriously doubting my capabilities as the PM said that my project has to "catch up" due to the delays. Frankly, I feel as though I'm carrying the entire project on my back as my two team members are far too junior to undertake some of the tasks I would like them to do. *sigh*
I try to put this behind me and soldier on but as I do so, I feel that I'm redoing a lot of work when I hand it out. Which is not what I want... Because of that, I'm seriously doubting my technical and leadership abilities.
Ok, rant over. The picture in the mirror is not so pretty but if I draw the mirror with nice doodles and etc, it makes me a bit happier. However, that's not the end result I'm looking for. I still need to find a solution....
I guess need to educate them all the way...
ReplyDeleteI do look into the mirror and see if I have indeed reach where I want to be. Ha :D
ReplyDeleteAbout your juniors...I think you had to guide them. Hit the hard and shape them up. ;)
Look into the mirror? Reminds me of the MJ song. LOL!
ReplyDeleteIt's tough when you have to do everything as your juniors are not capable. I guess you have got to train them and this calls for serious leadership : )
Hi all,
ReplyDeleteChe-Cheh - I don't mind to guide them but can't hold their hand all the way... especially when time is constrained...
Tekkaus - Got to do both... Like my friend said, "Must hentam and sayang also.." LOL!!
foongpc - My implicit dedication to MJ... Glad you picked it up. Yes, it is tough now but I've done it before. Just that back then, I had time. Now, I don't and they don't get that. Yes, you're right. Some leads would just leave them behind but I give them a few chances as I can see potential.
As a junior myself, sometimes a little nudge in the right direction can really make a difference. I always feel that if I've told you a number of times but if you still forget then we have a problem here.
ReplyDeleteIn any case, all the best!